I am 26 years old, I live in Maryland, where I grew up. I have started a family of my own. I have a little boy “J”, he just turned three. We live with his father, who I intend to marry someday. I am attending Community College and will receive my Certification as an Electrocardiogram and Intravenous Therapy Technician in July of this year. I will be going back again in the fall to also be Certified as a Nursing Assistant.
I wanted to start this blog so that I have an outlet. I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I can remember. I have a hard time forming solid, lasting relationships with others and tend to isolate myself from the rest of the world. I do recall a time when I felt good about life, I was full of hope for the future, and really enjoyed taking long walks. Now that I am a mother and my fiancée works so much, I don’t make the extra effort to find time for walks. I do walk with my son sometimes during the day but, it usually doesn’t turn out like I had hoped, he gets cranky or doesn’t want to listen to me, then I get flustered and feel worse than when we left the house.
I have two younger sister’s, “S” is 21 and married, she lives a few minutes from us and we are really close. She is my best friend and she gives me strength and courage. “A” is 20, she was married with a 2 year old daughter but, it seems like she just wanted to play house and when the going got tough she wanted to split from her husband to be with some guy she dated in high School, leaving all the responsibilities with her husband. She acts a lot like our mother, selfishly seeking freedom from the pressure of everyday life.